I am a bitter fuck.

I found out that my old best friend and partner in crime from high school just got engaged. This being the absolute asshole who stole women from me, lied to me, and in general did not act like a best friend ought to. We haven't spoken in years.

Why do I still feel this way? Why do I let crap like this infect my soul and make me feel worse than I did before I read it?

Why is everyone I know getting married?

Why do I feel old and ugly and all those nasty emotions.

Why does it all feel so bitter right now.

I feel alone.