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Nov. 29th, 2017 07:59 pmthe world is a very strange place right now. On the one hand, you have the trumpkin crap going on. On the other, you have the revelations about so many powerful men and their assault on women. It's execrable behavior. Awful.
Without going into a ton of detail, as a younger man, I engaged in behaviors I regret and abhor. I've tried to make amends as best I can; I don't know how good of a job I've done, but I've certainly made efforts to make amends. having said that...I have also internally castigated myself for a long time. I've said, to people I trust, that I don't think I'm a good person. I'm still don't think I am...but I'm realizing that my actions, as shitty as they were at the time, as shitty as they remain if they hurt someone...are not the earthshattering ruinous things I believe them to be. That I need to let myself off the mat. I need to allow myself to heal and stop rending my flesh and clothes about them.
It needs to stop. I need to feel better about me. I am not some awful person.
Without going into a ton of detail, as a younger man, I engaged in behaviors I regret and abhor. I've tried to make amends as best I can; I don't know how good of a job I've done, but I've certainly made efforts to make amends. having said that...I have also internally castigated myself for a long time. I've said, to people I trust, that I don't think I'm a good person. I'm still don't think I am...but I'm realizing that my actions, as shitty as they were at the time, as shitty as they remain if they hurt someone...are not the earthshattering ruinous things I believe them to be. That I need to let myself off the mat. I need to allow myself to heal and stop rending my flesh and clothes about them.
It needs to stop. I need to feel better about me. I am not some awful person.

