I am a bitter fuck.

[lwoodbloo]

I found out that my old best friend and partner in crime from high school just got engaged. This being the absolute asshole who stole women from me, lied to me, and in general did not act like a best friend ought to. We haven't spoken in years.

Why do I still feel this way? Why do I let crap like this infect my soul and make me feel worse than I did before I read it?

Why is everyone I know getting married?

Why do I feel old and ugly and all those nasty emotions.

Why does it all feel so bitter right now.

I feel alone.

Comments

[violetshade.livejournal.com]

:( *Hugs*
I'm here for you.

[violetshade.livejournal.com]

Postscript: You sadly missed the days when I was the poster child for single and lovin' it. Ah, the ironies.

[dawnstar.livejournal.com]

This may not help in the slightest, but I'll do what I can.

I am not getting married any time soon.

I also do not think you are either old OR ugly. *big hugs*

I, too, have people from my past who can still hurt me. People I thought were friends, who turned out not to be very good friends. People who I thought were the best friend I'd ever had, and were actually very very bad for me. And yes, the demons of the past still haunt. I can tell you that the past doesn't matter and to live in the here and now ... but I know it's not as simple as that. Especially if the here and now is appearing bleak as well.

All I can really /honestly/ say to help is that you're not alone in how you feel. *gives some more hugs*

[(Anonymous)]

Everyone I know is getting married, is married, or getting engaged too. It really sucks I know. That "old and ugly" feeling hits me at the worst times also. You, my friend, are not old or ugly! I would give you massive hugs and kisses if I could!! We can be mean and bitter together and rag on all the people getting married, and make bets on how long its gonna last. It'll be a party. :)

Let's have a party!!!

[(Anonymous)]

Everyone I know is getting married, is married, or getting engaged too. It really sucks I know. That "old and ugly" feeling hits me at the worst times also. You, my friend, are not old or ugly!! (thats my usual complaint about myself, thief;} ) I would give you massive hugs and kisses if I could!! We can be mean and bitter together and rag on all the people getting married, and make bets on how long its gonna last. It'll be a party. :)

[phoenixsong]

*hughughug* Believe me, I understand the feeling. You're not alone in feeling that way. I know that doesn't exactly help that other alone thing, but at least know you're not the only one in the boat.

[jupiterskunk.livejournal.com]

::big hug::

You're definitely not an asshole. Nor are you old or ugly. Quite the opposite.
Marriage is a failed institution anyway. Singles are the ones with the advantages.

[elordais.livejournal.com]

The past's a thing that more often than not seems to hurt rather than heal. At least, that's how it is for most of the people I know. Old friends make hurtful enemies, or at least adversaries : /
For some reason I'm really failing in trying to say what I mean right now.
I'm here to listen as best I can, mi compadre, though it may not have much influence on ya.

Peace, man.

[chelipunkass.livejournal.com]

You know how I feel.. I don't need to tell you .. but I will cheer you up with this... HELLO KITTIE!! *giggles*

[jupiterskunk.livejournal.com]

Oh lucky you. Jealousy.

[queenofennui.livejournal.com]

You're not a bitter fuck. And you're not alone. I wish I could say something extremely profound but my meds have kicked in and you know how that goes.. so *hugs and handcuffs* love ya.

[saintlex.livejournal.com]

*hug*

[merina888.livejournal.com]

You have my sympathies, love. I know where you're at. It may not seem that way to some people, but I do understand. I feel that way myself sometimes lately. *big hugz* I miss you and wish I was there to cheer you up.