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Oct. 7th, 2003 08:38 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lwoodblooWill Oldham wrote a song that Johnny Cash covered on American III: Solitary Man that I like quite a bit. It's called "I See a Darkness". It speaks to sadness, no not even sadness. To black depression and deep melancholy.
And lately, that's been how I'm feeling. Just since thursday or so. Yom Kippur helped a lot, believe it or not. Recharged my spiritual and emotional batteries. Fasting can do that for you, especially in a spiritual context. Made me realize that this stuff is stupid. I am the only one who can do for me. I can't depend on someone to call me and say, "Wsup, what are we doing?" Well, at least not most of the time. And I can do without other people, especially if depending on undependable people is just going to bring me down.
Suffice it to say, it was a good weekend. I got to see my high holidays buddies, including my friend Michelle who I went to poland with back in the day. I like her. She's no bullshit, no pretense, and I've always admired her for that.
And lately, that's been how I'm feeling. Just since thursday or so. Yom Kippur helped a lot, believe it or not. Recharged my spiritual and emotional batteries. Fasting can do that for you, especially in a spiritual context. Made me realize that this stuff is stupid. I am the only one who can do for me. I can't depend on someone to call me and say, "Wsup, what are we doing?" Well, at least not most of the time. And I can do without other people, especially if depending on undependable people is just going to bring me down.
Suffice it to say, it was a good weekend. I got to see my high holidays buddies, including my friend Michelle who I went to poland with back in the day. I like her. She's no bullshit, no pretense, and I've always admired her for that.
