Too much.

[lwoodbloo]

I angst too much about stupid stuff. Went out with that girl today. She's neat. Cute. Nice eyes. Short hair. I like that. All of it. She's pleasant to look at. She has a nice smile. AND I'VE SPENT THE REST OF THE FUCKING DAY WONDERING ABOUT HOW BAD IT WENT....grrrr. I'm fucked up. I'm thisclose to calling her and asking her directly how she thought it went. But I'm thinking that would be stalkery and weird, and I'm not feeling like scaring her away . *sighs* Just rare for me to meet someone who I really want to stick around, that I don't feel ambivalent about. Someone who I don't want to give up on just cos they don't call or write for a couple of days. Got to the point where I couldn't wait for my morning break at work, cos I check my email at another terminal then, and I smiled everyday when I saw her name/email in my box. I looked cute. I thought I was smart but not overbearing, I didn't dominate the conversation WHY AM I OBSESSING? Christ on a crutch. I need a slug of hard liquor or something to just kick this out of my head.

*later*

Yep, still there. *gets a sledgehammer*

Tomorrow I'm gonna email her.