I feel better.
May. 7th, 2002 01:20 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lwoodblooI wrote three poems today. I loved the way blake named his volumes, so mine will likely be "Songs of Disillusionment and Alienation at Modernity". Ooh, the pretension monster nips at my heels, y'all. Better watch out.
Lemme lead into the poetry dealio. I write when I'm in a bad/sad mood. And I was role playing last night, and we went really late. Not as late as I have been, but late enough, and I had my bike, no car, so it was not going to be a pretty trip home. My moms called, told me basically that it was time to go. And being 25, tired, and ornery, I shouted at her over the phone. I love my family, but there are times I just can't deal. And my judgment wasn't too good that night either, I must admit. I wanted to stay till the end. It turned out that I got home earlier than I thought, but it really kinda got into the whole priorities thing. Where am I, what am I doing. I don't really have enough direction in my life, internal or ex. My family's great with letting me kinda do my thing, whatever it is, travel, seeing friends. But they want to see better from me. And I get where they're coming from. WHile I like my job for what I get from it. But not the job itself. *sighs*
Fuck this.
I need to do something with my life, even if it don't involve my job.
Which I will do.
Lemme lead into the poetry dealio. I write when I'm in a bad/sad mood. And I was role playing last night, and we went really late. Not as late as I have been, but late enough, and I had my bike, no car, so it was not going to be a pretty trip home. My moms called, told me basically that it was time to go. And being 25, tired, and ornery, I shouted at her over the phone. I love my family, but there are times I just can't deal. And my judgment wasn't too good that night either, I must admit. I wanted to stay till the end. It turned out that I got home earlier than I thought, but it really kinda got into the whole priorities thing. Where am I, what am I doing. I don't really have enough direction in my life, internal or ex. My family's great with letting me kinda do my thing, whatever it is, travel, seeing friends. But they want to see better from me. And I get where they're coming from. WHile I like my job for what I get from it. But not the job itself. *sighs*
Fuck this.
I need to do something with my life, even if it don't involve my job.
Which I will do.
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Date: 2002-05-07 05:01 am (UTC)just because i haven't heard from you in ages and am therefore clueless on this front, what are you doing with yourself these days? you can e-mail me if you'd rather not post it here. i for one have just been laid off from my second job (or third, depending on how you count things) in the last year. though at least this one i had several months' warning, so i could save up some money, and start contacting people about jobs again before the end.
don't get me started on how much it sucks to recover from working C shift. s:P~
Kristen s:)