I'm a lazy soooooddddd!

[lwoodbloo]

God, haven't I just been lazy lately. Haven't posted since I'm feeling better. And all my fans out there deserve so much better.

Came to grips with something today. I'm 25, and I've never had sex. And I'm finally okay with it. I don't think it's because I'm ugly (There's a fuckin' step, trust me). I think it's a matter of...well, I don't exactly know. But it's not a big deal, not anymore. Not as big of a deal as it was. And there are days I want to jump the first girl I see on the subway. Trust me though, femininity is safe from my depredations.

Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever find a middle ground between respect and lust, because sometimes I feel like one is mutually exclusive from the other. No, not feel. It's more unconscious than that. Because sometimes I can't consciously make the mental move to say "I like you, you're sexy, I want you". I've never done the hookup thing (okay, once. But it was premeditated). I guess I need some time love and affection to really make the physical thing work for me.

Well. That was cathartic. I'm just this side of tears.

Shoot me if I get emo,

Resnick

Comments

[tufuie.livejournal.com]

Sex is overrated anyway, just look for that person you want to spend the rest of your life with. Love is so much better then just sex..... Take care