I don't feel like a sweet guy.

[lwoodbloo]

Someone told me I was too consistently sweet of a guy today. Doesn't really matter who. It irritated me a little bit. I am who I am for a lot of reasons. I am nice to people until I am given a reason to do otherwise. I do sweet things for people because I like to do them. I like the looks on people's faces when I remember to do something thoughtful for them. I don't like the idea that someone will be drawn to me because I ignore them, or not pay them attention because inevitably, they'll come to me. I guess I'm a little insecure as well; contrary to the opinion raised by a friend of mine the other day, I don't feel cute, or handsome, or sexy on a regular basis. You see yourself every day, you develop an opinion; whoever the current iconic male sex symbol is, I ain't it. I feel like i make up for it with a good smile, making people laugh, and doing thoughtful things. Hell, I'm moody e-fucking-nough for most people; trust me, I pitch fits as well as anyone. I write poetry about it. My stories are flavored with it too. As for the other stories, I think at least one of my lj buddies can attest to their power. Lix? ;)

I just don't want someone to see what they see, and judge me only on what they think they know about me. Rant over. Me and Bill Hicks are gonna go out, do some whippets, and pick up dirty women. Ta ta!

(okay. Prolly not dirty women. I like mine showered. Maybe a little perfume)

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[merina888.livejournal.com]

As I consistently tell all my single friends, the right one will come along when you're not looking....In the meantime, you gotta learn to like yourself. Most people, no matter how good a friend they are, never really know another person. We all wear masks to some extent to hide our true selves. I don't think you're any different from most people. And to some extent, you're probably better.