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Insecurities
Jun. 29th, 2004 03:06 pmWe had a meeting at work today about the next couple of months. We're going to get recertified for ISO 9000 in July, I think. My boss was talking about it today, and she related that I'd be the point man with some of the external auditors. I know my stuff really well, and I worked with not only our internal auditors here, but I also did the external audit last time and worked with our staff people too.
I don't like that she's talking about it. At all. Why? Because I'm not comfortable with it. I want, desperately, to blend in and to be average. I want to be just like everyone else for ONCE in my life. And that conflicts with my internal craving for approval and excelling at things, and leaves me feeling conflicted.
I don't know why I feel like this.
I don't like that she's talking about it. At all. Why? Because I'm not comfortable with it. I want, desperately, to blend in and to be average. I want to be just like everyone else for ONCE in my life. And that conflicts with my internal craving for approval and excelling at things, and leaves me feeling conflicted.
I don't know why I feel like this.
