I'm a real bitter fucker, aren't I?

[lwoodbloo]

No one needed to read that last post. Really. I know it, I understand it. I've dealt (mostly) with my feelings. Me and the person who I talked to chatted (yeah, that's kinda like saying everest is a mountain) last night. In a lot of ways, I shouldn't have said anything. My feelings were hurt, and I lashed out a little bit. I'm not going to block her. I'm not going to lock her out of my life. I'm not going to stalk her either, not going to message her out of nowhere, not going to call her.

I'm gonna wrap up and post later. Like I posted a coupla days ago, it's hard to love someone when that someone loves someone else. Well, that's a paraphrase. But you get the idea. Good luck, kid. Be happy. I'll leave you alone to do so.

Comments

[tufuie.livejournal.com]

it gets easier with time, but I am glad it got settled.... Take care............ ~M~

[sugarpunkfairy.livejournal.com]

Matt,
why can't we just be friends like we were originally??? huh? i mean i am sorry ok please stop being bitter and cold towards me. I loved talking to you before it got all relationship like between the two of us. i wish i meant more to you so that u would talk to me like u used to like the friends we originaly were.
~Lix

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[lwoodbloo.livejournal.com]

I took this way too hard. That's my fault. Last night, I was angry and bitter and sad. It wasn't a good time to have any perspective and talk about this. I liked the feelings I had for you, and it's gonna take me a minute or three (four or five, you never know. ;)) to just kinda get them out of my system. I didn't want you to feel bad about the whole thing, okay? That was not my intention. It was my intention to get away for a little bit and let some of my hurt go away so I wouldn't be so bitter and angry sounding next I spoke to you. It's just been...hard lately. Very hard. Best way I can put it. And I don't take it very well.

I hope we can still talk like the friends we were. I do. And I hope you read this and understand a little bit more.

It's ok Matt

[sweetmelanie20.livejournal.com]

We all have times when we are seriously pissed at our "significant other". But I think you were just more upset with her because she didn't have the same feelings for you that you had for her. Move on hun..there is someone out there that will care for you as much as you do for them..hint hint...ttyl