lwoodbloo | (no subject)

What a fucked up day.

My boss finally caught on to the internet use in the office. She's not dumb. I never thought she was, but it turns out she knew all the time. I'm not in trouble or anything. But I'm feeling pretty shitty that she had to bring it to my attention. *sighs* I'm a dumb fucker. It's in the fuckin' business rules. I really need to recall that however good I am at my job I still have to abide by the same rules as everyone else. But she wasn't mad. Just wanted me to be honest with her. And well...I appreciated that she was okay with it. As long as I didn't do it again.

And I ran a DND 3rd ed game tonite. I killed five characters. The whole party. I feel so shitty. I feel like I did a horrendous job. I feel like i stole people's fun. I feel like I'm not cut out for this. There's paperwork, and I had to document that I had killed characters. That's sad ass shit. I don't know if I want to do this much more. *sighs* Fuck it all. I wish I'd become a jock instead of a gamer. Fuck it all. Trash.