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Apr. 8th, 2002 09:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lwoodblooSo.
So, I'm not going to go all deep and meaningful all of a sudden. I think yesterday is as deep as I'm getting for a bit.
But.
But I also think that I am doing better in a lot of things. I'm not as scared to talk to people as I once was. There's no sense in fearing the pretty girl you work across from. She's not scared of you. And. And I also think that the next time I go out, I have to say more than "Hi" to the cute girl who is there, and dancing. I miss so many opportunities to put myself out there. Why? Cos it's a situation with an undefinable outcome. And when you lack confidence ( I do. I do. Shut up, baldy. I can admit whatever I want), you end up turning down opportunities cos you think you'll fail and think that is the most awful thing that could happen.
So.
So, here's a goal. I'd like to date someone for a while this year. There. Out on paper, a bit late for new years, but what the hell. And I want to be comfortable enough with them to talk about anything. And I want someone who's a good kisser. There. I think that's fair.
So, I'm not going to go all deep and meaningful all of a sudden. I think yesterday is as deep as I'm getting for a bit.
But.
But I also think that I am doing better in a lot of things. I'm not as scared to talk to people as I once was. There's no sense in fearing the pretty girl you work across from. She's not scared of you. And. And I also think that the next time I go out, I have to say more than "Hi" to the cute girl who is there, and dancing. I miss so many opportunities to put myself out there. Why? Cos it's a situation with an undefinable outcome. And when you lack confidence ( I do. I do. Shut up, baldy. I can admit whatever I want), you end up turning down opportunities cos you think you'll fail and think that is the most awful thing that could happen.
So.
So, here's a goal. I'd like to date someone for a while this year. There. Out on paper, a bit late for new years, but what the hell. And I want to be comfortable enough with them to talk about anything. And I want someone who's a good kisser. There. I think that's fair.
